hellowonderland: (buffy // fireman)
2015-12-09 05:07 pm

"By the Rivers Dark" (7/32) Buffy/Angel

Yeah, I can't believe it either, you guys.

Title: By the Rivers Dark (7/32)
Author: Trixen
Disclaimer: Joss. Trixen. They don’t sound anything alike.
Rating: R
Summary: While in search for more Potentials, Buffy stumbles upon a portal, buried inside the rubble of the Watcher’s Council Building. It hurtles her back in time, to a place she could never have imagined.
Timeline: Set after “Bring on the Night” in S7
Pairing: Buffy/Angel

Find the other chapters here
Welcome to the Monster Watch, Buffy... )
hellowonderland: (pacey joey // eyes)
2015-11-27 02:32 pm

"Her Mouth Waters ((Hot Salt))" Pacey/Joey 1/1

Title: Her Mouth Waters ((Hot Salt))
Author: Trixen
Summary: Summer without Pacey, inevitably turns to fall. A Pacey/Joey show, for realsies. Re-write of Season 3 finale/after.
Category: Dawson’s Creek

“Look at me, Jo.” His voice is rough, hoarse. It catches her between her legs, deep down low. )
hellowonderland: (claire // drink up)
2015-11-27 01:50 pm

"Through" Jamie/Claire - Outlander - 1/1

Title: Through
Author: Trixen
Disclaimer: DG = owns. Trixen = owns red wine and not much else
Summary: Just a little ditty. Based on the TV show. What if Claire had found her way through the stones before the Red Coats got her?


Beat, beat.

It rushed within her then, like drums or a cat’s paw, swiping. Her old cat from childhood, Barney. Sand on his whiskers and the little scritch scratch of his tongue against her cheek on sunlit mornings. Beat, beat.

Wake up, Claire. Wake up, you dumb bunny.

She rolls her head to the side just as she vomits clear and pale liquid over the wet grass. She tastes it in her mouth, like oats or other bland things, whatever Jamie fed her for breakfast. He said she ate so little, and that by comparison he ate enough for an ox and she had laughed, her heart thrumming against her breast, her heart. Oh.


The shock of it, it pummels her belly and she throws up again, his semen, his kisses, the blood in the back of the rapist. Blood blush of a popped kidney and Jamie whispering to her afterward, palming her hands, calling her his brown haired lass, his love. Was that what it meant? Was that all there was?

What had she done?

Someone is clutching at her shoulder and for a moment she feels blessed relief, oh such sweet and pure relief. It will be Willie, or even Jamie, returned early, and she wonders, was Horrocks really what Hugh had said he would be and what would Christmas be at Leoch and what bed would they share, dark and hot in the night – she had promised him, after all, promised him she would be there here here when he got back – promised, Claire, oh why did you do that

“Claire, are you all right, oh Claire…”

She can feel the weight of pearls, heavy and cool against her collarbones. She sees his eyes.

She closes hers.


The moment he runs up to the stones, he knows.

He doesn’t ken how he knows, but he does. Jamie Fraser is many things, but he is not foolish or fanciful.

Is she gone she is gone

At the base of the tallest rock, there is a length of plaid, its folds seared by dirt and grass, the sweet stink of rain clinging to his nose as he touches it, wonders.

“Lady Lallybroch,” he says, whispers really, and his voice cracks just once, his hand reaching out for the stone, his hand reaching to her, to nothing, to a memory of brown curls

in the light of the fire.

hellowonderland: (harry hermione // evil crack whore)
2014-10-01 07:53 pm

"The Darkling World (This is What Happened)" Harry/Hermione (1/1)

Title: The Darkling World (This is what Happened)
Author: Trixen
Summary: After Deathly Hallows, Harry learns the truth about… what really happened. Hint: things are quite different than he initially thought.
Pairing: A Harry/Hermione show

That wasn't real. You and Ron are real. )
hellowonderland: (buffy angel // walk in the snow)
2010-12-20 08:53 pm

"It's What Happened to Them" (Buffy/Angel) 1/1, R

Oops, what happened here?

Apparently, I wrote something. It has been a long, long, long time. But this has been sitting in my brain for at least a year, and I finally, over the last several weeks, actually ... *wrote* it.

Title: It’s What Happened to Them
Author: Trixen
Disclaimer: Joss still owns them and I still don’t.
Rating: R

A cold room, a snowfall, a disappearing world. Buffy and Angel, till the end, yes. )
hellowonderland: (buffy // a giggle)
2010-01-17 08:22 am

MASTER LIST OF TRIXEN'S FIC [updated November 16 2008]

This is my shameless bid for feedback. Also, a handy cataloguing system. An enormous Master List of all my fiction, organized and detailed and the whole shebang. Seriously, I have been working on this for months. I'm either slow, or, well... I'm slow. This will soon be pinned to the top of my Journal, but I recommend bookmarking it if you are anal and lovely like me and want to be able to get to the fic without waiting.

Master List of Trixen's Fic )

I feel a bit like running up and down the halls of LiveJournal land shrieking, "MASTER LIST! MAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRR LIST!" But I won't. Whew. I'm just thankful to be done this montrosity.
hellowonderland: (liz // up close and startled)
2009-06-07 08:21 pm
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This is extremely interesting.

Privilege Meme - Bold those that are true

1. Father went to college

2. Father finished college

3. Mother went to college

4. Mother finished college

5. Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor

6. Were the same or higher social class than your high school teachers

7. Had more than 50 books in your childhood home

8. Had more than 500 books in your childhood home

9. Were read children's books by a parent

10. Had lessons of any kind before you turned 18

11. Had more than two kinds of lessons before you turned 18

12. The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed positively.

13. Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18

14. Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs

15. Your parents (or a trust) paid for all of your college costs

16. Went to a private high school

17. Went to summer camp

18. Had a private tutor before you turned 18

19. Family vacations involved staying at hotels

20. Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18

21. Your parents bought you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them

22. There was original art in your house when you were a child

23. Had a phone in your room before you turned 18

24. You and your family lived in a single family house

25. Your parent(s) owned their own house or apartment before you left home

26. You had your own room as a child

27. Participated in an SAT/ACT prep course [We don't have these in Canada!]

28. Had your own TV in your room in High School

29. Owned an investment in High School or College

30. Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16

31. There is no 31

32. Went on more than one cruise with your family

33. Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up

34. You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family

35. I am for the most part healthy and have no significant disability.

36. I have been born into a gender which I am comfortable with.

37. My sexuality is viewed positively in the media and by the majority of my society.

38. My sexuality is not visible to others just by looking at me.

39. My peer group is represented positively in the media and embraced positively by the majority of society.

40. My ethnic group is represented positively in the media and rarely stigmatized or stereotyped.

41. The language spoken by teachers in school was the same language as that I spoke with my family at home.

42. My parents and teachers took it for granted that I would attend university.

43. Any money I earned at part-time jobs before I turned 18 was mine to keep or put towards my education.

44. I know what my family's genetic history is.

45. When people see me with my parents, they assume we're related.

46. I graduated from college or university with no debt.

47. During college or university, I could use income from part-time jobs to supplement my spending money (rather than for tuition, books, or living expenses).

hellowonderland: (rose // dare to glance)
2009-05-20 02:05 am

Trixen time!

Let's have an update on my life! Fandom and Real, because that's how I roll.

1. I forgot how much I like Jann Arden. I've been downloading all of her old music (I own the CDs but they are at home in Canada) and wow. "Good Mother" especially is so fantastic. It always, always makes me cry because it describes so perfectly how I feel about my parents.

//I've got, money in my pocket
I like the colour of my hair
I've got a friend who loves me
Got a house, I've got a car

I've got a good Mother
and her voice is what keeps me here
feet on ground, heart in hand, facing forward
be yourself


Cardboard masks of all the people I have been
Thrown out with all the rusted, tangled, dented, goddamned miseries
You can say I'm hard to hold
but if you knew me, you'd know

I've got a good Father
and his strength is what makes me cry
feet on ground, heart in hand, facing forward
be yourself

See why it makes me cry? Oh, *sniff* I miss my Mum & Dad so much. Can't wait to see them in June!!

2. I'm re-watching Dawson's Creek and OMG, the chemistry between Pacey and Joey was there all the way back in S1. Mostly because you can tell Katie and Josh wanted to ravage each other soooo badly, and plus, you can tell that Katie hates James Van Der Beek SO SO much. It's splendidly awesome.

How in heaven's name did the writers of that show EVER think Dawson would appeal to a mass audience? Or, for that matter, to anyone? I mean, for the last time, SHUT UP, Dawson. Signed, the world.

3. Continuing with Weight Watchers. It's getting a bit easier, though for a while there I was gaining and losing the same 4-5 pounds which is fucking frustrating. What I'm doing now is sticking to a few main things: I eat mainly fruits, vegetables, nuts and seeds and wholemeal breads and pastas. BUT, and this is weird for me, I'm letting myself have small portions of my favourite foods -- like extra mature cheddar and peanut butter and good salad dressing. It's the best. So a day would be:

Breakfast - a smoothie made with frozen blueberries, frozen raspberries, frozen cherries, strawberries, skimmed milk, 2 tbsp wheatgerm and 1 tbsp flaxseed

Lunch - a piece of cheese, mixed peppers, cauliflower, crispy parma ham, cherry tomatoes and some sort of dip

Dinner - wholegrain pasta with a tomato based sauce and a side salad of mixed grated carrot, crumbled sesame crispbreads, veggies and light feta with REAL olive oily dressing.

SO good and I'm actually steadily losing weight. I mean, so far. Plus I'm doing Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred almost every day. It kicks my ass so hard.

4. My fic writing is not going well at all. I can't seem to get it. I am nowhere near Buffy at the moment so can't edit any chapters of By the Rivers Dark to make them fit for viewing. I am trying though. I want to write BSG fic, but don't feel worthy. I have a Titanic fic that I'm almost finished, but I mean, who wants to read that? I'm very sure that I will crank out a Pacey/Joey DC fic circa Season 5 (AKA the season of HELL AND FORGETFULNESS) that will fix that season of HELL AND FORGETFULNESS.

5. I am obsessed with Ray LaMontagne.

6. The constant media attention on Kelly Clarkson's weight is depressing me. Why is that what it always comes down to for a girl? Why is she always measured by that, like it somehow defines her worth? Poor, poor Kelly. I mean, I sense she doesn't give a shit, but that's how she rolls. I, on the other hand, would be crippled by the hatred and bile out there. And why? For what? Just because she has gained a few pounds? Fucking HELL.

That's all I've got for now. I think the rant finished me off.
hellowonderland: (roslin // edge of tears)
2009-05-19 11:13 pm

i can has show back now plz?

God, I miss Battlestar Galactica.

So say we all, right? I was listening to the soundtrack tonight and the title music especially got to me. Not to mention, 'Kobol's Last Gleaming' and 'All Along the Watchtower'.

I miss the actors, they were so frakking good at what they did. I miss Starbuck and I miss Kara Thrace. I miss Lee Adama. I miss the President. I miss the talk of the colonies. I miss the Galactica. I miss Colonel Tigh and I miss SIX oh God I miss SIX that crazy crazy hot hot hottie. I miss the bravery and the bloodshed, the stars and the darkened halls, I miss the battlestars and the frakking or fighting, I miss the kissing and the weeping, I miss the planets and the shadows of the ships, I miss the speeches and the poetry, the epicness of it ALL and how it was so weighty with its own purpose and mythology and history and the gritty, messy, sexy darkness. It brought the pain. I loved that. I loved it. All of it.

I miss that show.
hellowonderland: (pacey joey // against the pole)
2009-05-12 05:42 pm

let's sail away, darlin'


I am watching S1 of Dawson's Creek because I can, and because Love Film (UK's Netflix) lets you do such crazy things. James has never heard tell of the show, or it's actors, but he looked over my shoulder today and said, "Who is that wanker with the gigantic head?"

Oh, I love people's reactions to Dawson.

It's also quite amusing how you can tell that Katie Holmes and Josh Jackson were banging in their trailers at every available opportunity. The mad chemistry between them is palpable. There was an interview on the DVD with Katie, and she very dismissively rants about how unsuitable Dawson and Joey are for each other and how they shouldn't get together (maybe she was afraid she'd have to kiss the Beek?) but she mentions pointedly that she thinks Pacey and Joey "get a rise" out of each other and have a connection.

I have always loved Katie and Josh for that -- they saw the chemistry before the show's writers did, and lobbied for the relationship so hard that WE WON HAHAHAHA.
hellowonderland: (kara // long deep drink)
2009-05-06 11:25 pm

alcoholic, no, just passionate!

You know what I'm sick of feeling guilty about?

Having a glass of red wine.

All the doctors all blah blah liver failure cancer heart disease weight gain WELL WHATEVER. I LOVE red wine. I love the taste, the smell, the feel of it on my tongue. I love the different and complex flavours. I love how I can usually tell where it's from. I love the smoothness, the roughness, the oakiness or the fruitiness. I love cheap red wine. But most of all I love expensive red wine.

And I am sick to fucking death of feeling guilty about the fact that I ENJOY it. Everytime I turn around there is another 'reputable' research panel saying it is crap for my body, and yet, what ISN'T anymore? I could get hit by a bus tomorrow, and knowing my luck that is entirely possible, and I eat heathily and exercise, so I can has 1 guilty pleasure, right? EXCEPT NOT GUILTY.

/semi-joking except not.
hellowonderland: (leo // hi hottie)
2009-05-06 12:49 pm

mouth orgasm

I just made the most amazing granola of life. I found it in a GI cookbook. I love the GI and I've been sort of following it along with Weight Watchers and it's super helpful. I'm almost never hungry because the foods are so filling, nutritious and provide a slow energy burn. Yay!


3 tbsp olive oil or coconut oil
3 tbsp Tahini
150g whole oats (I used organic jumbo oats)
2 tbsp dessicated coconut
2 tbsp sesame seeds
2 tbsp pumpkin seeds
2 tbsp sunflower seeds
3 tbsp dried goji berries
1 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp ground ginger
3 tbsp Xylitol (or other vegetable derived natural sugar, even unrefined brown sugar works ... please don't use Splenda, I beg you)

Heat a frying pan on a very low heat and add the olive oil. Let it slowly heat up (if you're using coconut oil, let it melt). Add the oats and cook them slowly, stirring to get all of the oil absorbed. I cooked mine for about 5 minutes until they were turning golden. Add the Tahini and stir for a minute, making sure the oats are coated evenly. Add all the other ingredients and stir.

Serves 4 people (serving side is 85g).

Top with organic, bio-live vanilla yogurt and prepare to DIE SO GOOD OMG. Also good with fresh strawberries or blueberries sliced on top.
hellowonderland: (buffy // stars are not wanted)
2009-05-03 11:58 pm
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hellowonderland: (bsg // srsly?)
2009-04-30 04:34 pm
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I keep having really hot sex dreams about Robert Pattinson and that is just wrong. I wake up excited and frustrated.

hellowonderland: (liz // hair in a bun over the shoulder)
2009-04-28 10:32 pm
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want to buy a coconut?

I've been doing a lot of reading lately about one topic: coconut oil. I hear too many differing stories.

And so I say to you, my dear friendslist, is it actually good for you? Is it bad? What are the benefits? Who uses it? Who doesn't? And why?
hellowonderland: (roslin // smarter than you)
2009-04-27 06:39 pm

Hillary wants to marry me.

Republican Chris Smith getting completely and quite awesomely PWNED by SOS Hillary Clinton.

hellowonderland: (tricia // swan neck)
2009-04-20 10:28 pm

(no subject)

You know, it comes to mind that I really, really love Mary McDonnell? And that in my imaginings, she is just like Laura Roslin in person, so in reality she IS the President, but someone asked her to pretend to be an actress and play the President and she was like, "Ok, I am the President, duh, I know all." If you see what I mean.

I want her to use her 'edge of tears' voice on me. Sigh. I love her.

Oh, and am I wrong in thinking that Tricia and Katee were totally having sex the entire time BSG was on air? C'MONNNNN. Tricia is so beautiful -- wow. But really. Someone MUST have been having sex. I want to know who had sex!
hellowonderland: (bsg // srsly?)
2009-04-19 10:58 pm

You started this, Bush.

Wow. {These signs} are just flat-out ugly. Comparing Obama to Hitler? Making light of rape (OH HA HA LADIES)? Daring to even MENTION Slavery? FUCKING HELL.

Even the "OMGZ YOUR ALL BABY KILLERSZ" troupe showed up.

I love how all these people were apparently completely happy when Bush was Prez. Just goes to show.
hellowonderland: (bsg quotes // fight em till we can't)
2009-04-14 06:28 pm

(no subject)

{Murdered girl in California may have been raped by woman}

As hideous and disgusting as this is, maybe it will finally teach people that women are just as capable of heinous acts as men. Basically, don't feel comfortable just because your child is with a woman. Anyone remember {Karla Homolka}? Biggest travesty of Canadian justice ever. She was just as guilty (if not guiltier than him) and was let off on a plea bargain because GASP how could a woman do such awful things? And to KIDS?

But of course, she did. She raped four girls (including her own sister) and no one knows -- she may have killed them too. Now she's living in the West Indies, with kids of her own. That's justice for you.

Now maybe the Ontario police will take the abduction of {this little girl} seriously -- she was seen walking off with a woman and THAT makes it okay? No. Just because you haven't found her body doesn't mean she isn't being held somewhere. Good God.